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History


 We write history every day. Our own, personal, tiny kind of history.
It's small, but it's still history. A small line on an enormous white piece of paper. A tiny colorful line that happens to intersect other tiny lines on its path. A microscopical line that gets lost in the infinity.
It's funny, really. 'History' is such a big word. It encompasses such a vast volume of grandness and greatness and eternity. And we, as human beings, represent these tiny dots that you can't even tell apart from a fair distance. Yet we, insignificant creatures, write history every second. We, trivial animated things, are capable of excellence. Through our thoughts, words and actions.
And I have to admit, such an idea is kind of hard to ingest. On the other hand, it also creates a rather haunting sensation of randomness. Maybe even chaos.
It is random indeed - all of it. When we're born, who our parents are and what they've done with their lives up to that point, who their parents were and how each and every one of these people has been raised. How we're being raised. How other incidents happen to occur around us. How these incidents affect us. Our each and every choice. Every single word we utter. Every smile we smile and tear we cry. Every road we take, and every story we write without even realizing. And then there are all these people that enter our life by choice or chance. The way they act, talk, think, respond to random factors, actions, words. Their dreams and goals - short term or long term.
Our dreams. Each and every little dream or ideal that we develop.
All these things, and so many others, when turned into reality, create the world as we know it. Right now. This very second. And from this very point, it falls into our hands to write the rest of it. All the history that's left unwritten. Every single letter of it.
So, just how capable do *you* feel to write history?

Everything for free...


“I don’t know who you are…”
There are moments in your life when you just want to die.
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“But you seem very nice…”
The pain is so immense that you don’t even want it to go away anymore.
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“So will you talk to me?”
Because you know that there’s no way for it to ever disappear.
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“Shall I tell you a story?”
No way to ever forget it.
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“Should I tell you a dream?”
And the worst part is that…
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“They think I’m crazy…”
… you are all alone when this happens.
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“But they don’t know that I like it here…”
Truth be told, we all end up alone in moments like these.
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“It’s nice in here…”
And we eventually accept it.
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“I get everything for free…”
Most of the times, we accept it for someone else, though.
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“Have you been here before?”
We make a sacrifice.
..
“Shall I show you around?”
Because, come to think of it…
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“It’s very pretty…”
… it’s way easier to bear your own pain…
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“Have you come here to stay?”
… than to see the one you love dealing with it all.
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“Well, you sure picked a day…”
Way easier to walk away…
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“My name is Billy…”
… than to stay and let the other one suffer.
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“It's my birthday, you're invited to my party down the hall…”
Not easy.
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“Where I go, what I'll become or who I am or what I'll be…”
Just easier…
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“I’ll never know…”
Selfless, if you will…
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“But I am sure that I’ll get everything for free…”

Special (for B.)


B.: Yeah, but with all these resemblances, she's still not you.
Me: What's that supposed to mean?
B.: You're special.
Me: Oh... Thanks. *smiles*
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What does 'special' mean? Is it some kind of a label you earn because of something you do or say? Is it a label someone sticks on you out of affection or love? Is it something you're born with? Is it something you just are? Is it some kind of a warmth that people feel when they're around you? Is it some kind of a 'I am nice to people' label? Or, on the contrary, is it some label people stick on your face when you act all weird and genius-like and like a totally misunderstood artist? Is it something you choose to be? Or is it something you can't get rid of? Is it some kind of spell you put on some certain people in your life? Do people find you special from the first moment they see you? Or do they start feeling you're special once they get to know you? And if so, how well do they have to get to know you in order to decide that you're special? Does this vary from person to person? And after all, aren't we all special at a certain point? And one more thing: can you stop being special? Yes? Well, how do you do that? And if not, why not? Every good thing has its ending. Or... is being special a bad thing? Some kind of an unwanted label?
What does being special mean?
Blah, this was more of a... 'how many questions can you ask starting from a single word' thing. And aparently there are lost of questions to be asked. I won't deny it, some of these questions are really worthy of an answer, from where I'm standing. Some of them hit me on a daily basis. But some of them are there just to fill in the blanks in my head right now.
I guess I just realised that having someone to tell you that you're special really does make you feel that way. And it makes you feel warm inside. And outside.
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Today I learnt that being special actually means a lot. Before tonigh I always used to say that we are all special. And I still believe that. It's just that being special simply is a special, comforting, warming thing, regardless of the fact that we are all special. 'Cause you know what? We might all be special, but each and every one of us is special in its own way. And that's what makes us unique.
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Listening to: Katy Rose - Overdrive
Reading: Love The One You're With
Watching: Desperate Housewives Season 1, Episode 9
Playing: With my snow globe. (I am not sure how that's actually called.)
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They all come here to find a scene
But end up girls on methadrine
Naked on a TV screen
The dreams that fall beneath my feet
Make my footsteps feel so sweet
But your kisses are my fait accompli.
(Katy Rose - Overdrive)
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