Love. II

'mom, what is this acute pain that i'm feeling inside my chest?'
'this pain you're feeling right now is what people call love.'
'but isn't love supposed to be a beautiful comforting feeling?'
'well said supposed.'
'but it makes no sense at all, mommy. if love hurts this bad, then why do people still love? why do we hear everyday about people who make sacrifices in the name of love, and why do people mention love all the time?'
'because they're all fools, my baby. wise men never fall in love.'
'then i want to be wise. i don't want to ever love again. falling in love is stupid. we both loved daddy so much, and he still left.'
'you're right, little angel. we should never fall in love. if only we could...'
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... 'cause truth be told, love finds you even if you lock the door. and so does pain.

Everything for free...

“I don’t know who you are…”

There are moments in your life when you just want to die.

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“But you seem very nice…”

The pain is so immense that you don’t even want it to go away anymore.

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“So will you talk to me?”

Because you know that there’s no way for it to ever disappear.

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“Shall I tell you a story?”
No way to ever forget it.
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“Should I tell you a dream?”

And the worst part is that…

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“They think I’m crazy…”
… you are all alone when this happens.
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“But they don’t know that I like it here…”
Truth be told, we all end up alone in moments like these.
.

“It’s nice in here…”

And we eventually accept it.

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“I get everything for free…”
Most of the times, we accept it for someone else, though.
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“Have you been here before?”

We make a sacrifice.

..

“Shall I show you around?”
Because, come to think of it…
.

“It’s very pretty…”

… it’s way easier to bear your own pain…

.

“Have you come here to stay?”
… than to see the one you love dealing with it all.
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“Well, you sure picked a day…”

Way easier to walk away…

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“My name is Billy…”
… than to stay and let the other one suffer.
.

“It's my birthday, you're invited to my party down the hall…”

Not easy.

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“Where I go, what I'll become or who I am or what I'll be…”
Just easier…
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“I’ll never know…”

Selfless, if you will…

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“But I am sure that I’ll get everything for free…”

I ain't there just yet.

I don't know who I am
And I ain't there just yet
There's this light leading me
But my legs... - they won't follow.


I don't know who you are
And you're still far away
Your strength gives me hope
But I ain't there just yet.

Traveling Light

I'm pulling my suitcase down
Packing the things I need
Just a change of clothes
And a porcelain rose
You once gave to me
Leaving the guilt behind
I'm not gonna take the blame
Got too far to go to be carrying stones
When I roll away

I'm traveling light
No baggage this time
And no bitter memories
Weighing on my mind
I'm facing the wind
And I'm ready to fly
Anywhere my heart takes me tonight
I'm traveling light

It might be another town
It might take a year or two
But I'll find what I lost
And I'll have what I thought I had with you
It could be an uphill fight
Or maybe a winding road
All I really know is for me
There's only one way to go

I'm traveling light
No baggage this time
And no bitter memories
Weighing on my mind
I'm facing the wind
And I'm ready to fly
Anywhere my heart takes me tonight
I'm traveling light

I'm facing the wind
And I'm ready to fly
Anywhere my heart takes me tonight
I'm traveling light
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Today I learnt that turtles always win to rabbits.
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Listening to: Coldcut - Autumn Leaves
Reading: Getting Rid Of Matthew (OK, OK, I am a terribly slow reader...)
Watching: America's Next Top Model Cycle 12, Episode 9
Playing: MyBrute
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Since you went away,
The days grow long,
And soon I'll hear cold winter songs.
But I miss you most of all, my darling,
When autumn leaves start to fall.
(Coldcut - Autumn Leaves)
*Click to download song.

Uncomplicated.

'Your T-shirt lost its smell of you

And the bathroom's still a mess.

Remind me why we decided this was for the best.'

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'No hard feelings but there's nothing left

No point in crying

And dying and

Running around.'

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Rory: Dean.

Dean: What?

Rory: Wait!

Dean: Why?

Rory: Because I love you, you idiot.

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Today I learnt that not even a good joke can always save you.

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Listening to: Meredith Brooks - Bitch

Reading: Getting Rid Of Matthew

Watching: Better Off Ted Season 1, Episode 5

Playing: MyBrute

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I hate the world today

You're so good to me, I know

But I can't change

Tried to tell you but you looked at me like maybe

I'm an angel underneath

Innocent and sweet

(Meredith Brooks - Bitch)

*Click to download song.